I miss my mother more than anything
It doesnt help when I see others with their mothers and I feel short changed
I miss my mother more than anything
It doesnt help when I see others with their mothers and I feel short changed
I am at a very terrible place in my life where I hate basically everything in it.
I hate everything and just wish I could be anyone but myself.
Heavenly father please aid me Lord because I am fighting a losing battle inside of myself. My mind is unraveling and I am at the breaking point. I feel like I am dying from the inside out, my heart hurts, my chest aches, my head is in chaos, my body feels like it is going to stop any moment.
I don’t want to feel like this. I don’t want to feel weary, and I don’t want to feel this kind of emptiness. You said all those who are weary should come to you. Lord, I am weary, I am weary, I am so weary Lord. I am coming before you Lord and kneeling at your feet, I come before you Lord with my existence bared for you to see.
I come to you with the scars of my physical body and of my soul. I come to you with my fears, failures, sadness, sorrow, pain, anxiety, and my broken self. I come to you Lord will all that is within me. O come to you Lord because these tears won’t stop. This agony is beyond unbearable Lord.
I am standing at the edge of reason, unable to keep myself from falling off and sinking deeper into the abyss. Lord, I don’t want to fall, I don’t want to sink deeper into that darkness. I want Lord to feel and see the light. I want to feel the warmth of your love and mercy upon my soul. I want to feel life a human being and not an empty shell.
I want to stop feeling like my existence in an option. I want to feel like I belong in this world. I want to feel like I have a place that belongs to me. I want to stop feeling like the world in crumbling around me and that I am going to shatter any moment. Lord, I want to stop feeling like my heart will stop beating any moment. I want to stop being in so much pain. Lord, I am hurting so much. I am hurting so unbearably much, so much Lord that I just want it to stop. I am in so much pain and I cannot begin to describe how painful it is Lord. I feel like every step I take, every day I get up, takes all of my energy. All of my strength to keep going. Sometimes Lord, I just don’t want to get up, I just want to lie in bed, close my eyes and let everything fade away as I fall asleep.
I am at my breaking point Lord. I am trying, but I just don’t feel better inside. I am aching desperately for you Lord. Please, please help me Lord! Please, help me to clear my mind of these thoughts. Please help me to feel alive again. Let that energy run through my body, my mind, my soul and let me feel like a human being again.
Lord, the days of happiness seem to have disappeared and everyday I only feel glimpses of happiness before the sorrow takes over. I want to stop feeling chained to this life, to this body, to this existence. I want to feel liberated, soar free, and unbound to this emptiness. Lord, I want to feel, I want to breathe the air in and feel alive. I feel like a zombie Lord, awake but not really knowing anything.
Lord, I want to stress less, think less, criticize less, I just want to find my happiness. I don’t want to fret over the little things, and weep over things that don’t even matter. I want to smile, and feel happiness. I want to laugh with all of my heart. Lord, I don’t want to keep waking up everyday feeling like here we go again, another day to struggle through.
I don’t want to keep struggling to make it through each day. I don’t want to keep standing at the edge unable to keep myself from falling. Lord, I want to leave the weariness, sadness, and pain behind, and find a better life. Lord, I am only twenty years old. I have so much life to live, so many dreams to run after. Lord, I have a life to live, but I feel like living evades me. I am just going through the motions, and unable to feel anything remotely humanlike.
Please, Lord, please don’t leave me to handle this alone. I cannot handle this alone. I will end up doing something horrible to myself if I have to keep trying to make it through all of this pain by myself. All of this sadness Lord is killing me, it is killing me from the inside out. Getting up everyday is a struggle for me Lord. I am so close to giving up, I don’t want to give up, But, I just don’t know how to get through this alone.
I am always alone Lord and I don’t want to be alone anymore. I don’t want to feel this loneliness anymore. I want to be able to lean on someone. I want to be able to cry with someone. I want to be able to share my pain with someone. I want someone to see that I am struggling and that everything isn’t okay.
Lord, please acknowledge me. I am desperate for your guidance. I am desperate to be at your side and feel your warmth. Lord, please heal me from the inside out. Please heal this body of mine. Let me find the answer to healing myself. Let me, see how to live again to be feel again, to be human again. Lord, everything is not okay with me. Let someone see that there is more to me than meets the eye.
Everyday, I get closer to falling over the edge into that dark abyss. Lord, give me a hand to help me up, Give me a friend to trust this vulnerability with. Lord, give me something to believe in. I want you Lord, I am seeking you, I am asking for your mercy upon my life. Watch over me and be my guardian angel. Be my healer, my shield, my warmth, my blessing, my father, my friend, my confidante, my strength, my wisdom, my shoulder, my everything.
Lord you said ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will find, knock and the doors will be opened to you. I am asking for you to come into my life with a force, a presence, a sign. Lord, I know you have done so much for me, you have given me hope Lord that life has a greater promise than what I see right now. But, now I need you even more, I need you to be a shield unto me Lord. Be my shield against this sorrow, sadness, pain. Lord be my strength as I am weak. I am so weak Lord. In mind, in body, in spirit, in heart, in soul I am so weak Lord. Everyday, I grow weaker and soon I feel like I won’t even be able to get up. I need you Lord, and I am asking with my soul laid bare, my heart for you to see, on my knees for you to heal me. Help me to heal myself Lord. Be my doctor, be my healer, be my medicine. Come into my body and touch every inch and corner of me with your warmth and heal me physically, mentally, emotionally, and everything in between.
Lord, I am seeking you with all that is within me. I know that I am selfish, but Lord I do not know how to do this alone. I do not have the strength or the wisdom to heal myself. Lord, I am seeking you to be a mediator and a guide unto me. Bring people into my life that will help me get through these trying times. Bring people into my life that will see that I need their help. I need their strength and I need their love. Lord, give me people that can see my vulnerability and acknowledge that I need help, I am only one person Lord, and I cannot do this on my own. Lord, help me to seek that help, to find those that will look beyond my surface and give me room to breathe. Room to existb as a human being with all my imperfections and faults.
Lord I am desperately seeking an end to my emptiness. Lord take away the darkness, the black hole inside of me, let it close and let me find freedom to soar high and free. Lord I am seeking this with everything that is within me, please help me find the answers to making me better, stronger, and human. I do not want to be an empty shell anymore. I don’t want to be blank anymore. Lord, I want to be whole, I want to be alive, and I want to live a good life.
Lord show me the doors to knock on, and let them be open to me. Lord let the doors lead me to places that will give me answers, hope, and the belief that it will get better. I;m so scared to knock on those doors Lord, but give me the courage to seek and find those answers. Lord, help me to let go of my fears so that I can find that meaning that peace inside of my soul.
Lord my tears are overflowing and I don’t know how to stop them from brimming over the edge. Lord, I have lost myself and I am seeking your help to find me, to become a better person. To come to terms with who I am and who I am not. To seek happiness and be content with my life in the present and future.
Lord, these words are not enough to describe to extent of my troubles, my agony, my emptiness. You see all of me Lord, you see everything and Lord please stand in the gap for me. Lord, please be my guardian and help me find the light in this darkness. Lord, I don’t know how much more I can take alone. I am tired Lord, I am so tired. My existence has become nothingness. Lord please take me in your arms and hold me. Lord, please give me your warmth and see me through to better days.
Lord, open my eyes to what I am missing, let me see the path I should walk on. Let me see the road I need to travel on. Let me see what it is I need to do. Let me be led by you Lord and give me a sign I can see, hear, know that will guide me. Lord, I need you to hold me in your arms and be my comfort. There is no one to hold me in my sadness, to acknowledge me. I have realized that the closeness I seek with people is the closeness I need with you.
I am alone in this world Lord, with what I am going through. Only you know, because your the only one I can share this with. I don’t want to burden the people I love with this. I do not have someone I trust to see what I am facing. Lord, help me because without you I do not know how much longer I can hold out from giving up. I am weak Lord, and I am tired, my thoughts are chaos, My mind won’t stop and I cannot take it, I cannot take it Lord. Please, be my shield, my strength, my gaurdian, my medicine.
See me Lord, see my desperation, see my agony and help me Lord. You are the only one that can help me Lord, for I cannot even help myself. There is so much inside of me Lord, so much pain that it feels like a weight upon me. My body is not strong enough to carry it Lord. I am fading away Lord, Please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please Lord save me. My tears are falling and I have no one to catch them. Lord please help me, heal me, love me.
I cannot keep going through each day pretending everything is wonderful, when inside I am crumbling and breaking.
I wake up everyday
And know that it’s still here
That I must fight another day
With confusion and with fear
I look into the mirror
And find a stranger there
And when I look into his eye’s
I know he does not care
To have to fight another day
The want to live or die
And know that I will once again
Sit alone and cry
I know that every tear that fall’s
Drain’s more life from me
But I hide my pain deep within
So that other’s may not see
I fear the dark for what it bring’s
The beast will call my name
I am now your mate in life
And life will never be the same
The friend’s are gone
They cant comprehend what I battle everyday
They just say get over it
You choose to be this way
I still need to know that I am loved
I still need to know you care
It’s killing my soul to reach for you
Just to find that your not there
I am worn down by the battle’s, the struggle and the strife
And I’m tired of being alone
If this is all life offer’s me
Dear God please bring me home.
oh dear.I wish I could tell you that everything is going to be okay
I wish I could tell you that you will be happy again
forgive me if I can not offer you the hope you need to move on
truth is that I am not so sure myself
I am stuck in this hell hole
If I was to love,
I would give it my all,
I would love with every little bone in my flesh,
If I was to love,
I would tell it all out,
For the whole world to know,
I had found bone of my bone,
Flesh of my flesh,
My significant other.
If I,Snoo was to love again,
Despite the heartbreaks and disappointments,
I would love as though I had never been hurt,
I would nuture our garden of love,
Pruning the weeds n thorns,
So our love would flourish ever so beautifully.
For this I am sure of,
Love is a wonderfull thing,
If you allow yourself,
To be vulnerable,
Is indeed the essence of love,
IF I WAS TO LOVE.
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. So cliché but still so true. Not all of us men are looking for that blonde bombshell with a perfect figure and legs that women die for. We can’t deny that she’s nice to look at, but if she doesn’t have the qualities we are looking for in a partner, that beauty soon turns ugly. We are looking for beautiful traits as well as outer beauty.
Arm candy is nice to have but one day you will realize the candy on your arm is turning sour. The result? A loveless, meaningless relationship. We all want that perfect woman. Perfect means different things to different people. To me it was a strong woman, with a brain, a heart, obviously a chemical attraction and a fierce loyalty, but I got the added bonus of my wife being beautiful as well.
So how then do you know you have the perfect for you woman? What are the things you should not overlook if you happen to meet a potential life partner? If your new girlfriend has any of these beautiful qualities, hang on tight and never let her go. If you do, it will be your loss and the next guy’s gain.
Nothing wrong with a smart woman, even if she’s smarter than you. Remember we all are smart at different things. She can carry on a great conversation and mentally stimulates you all the time. This is a beautiful thing indeed.
No matter what you do or want to do, she’s right beside you. Not in front or behind. She’s your equal and is very comfortable in that spot. She loves your new ideas and appreciates that you love hers too.
When you think you’ve failed or you can’t do something or you’re trying something new, she’s going to be your biggest cheerleader. She will constantly tell you how great you are and you can do anything you put your mind to. She thinks you are the best person in the world for anything, ever, period.
Emotionally, mentally, financially any way. She will stand by your side and support whatever mission you are trying to accomplish this week whether it be apply for a new job or put new windows in the house. She’s there all the time for you.
It won’t take her an hour to get ready for a dinner outing with friends. She’ll be in the restroom for 15 minutes and come out looking like she just stepped out of a magazine. She doesn’t obsess about her looks but she certainly knows how to rock classiness too.
She’ll drop everything on a dime to lend a helping hand. She volunteers with the needy, she does things from her heart without expecting anything in return. She doesn’t count the good deeds she does, she just does them because she wants to.
She sees the bright side of everything, even the really low and tragic things that happen in our lives. She will try to cheer you or anyone else up. She’s the sunshine that walks in a room and lights it up. Her sunny disposition can diffuse any situation.
She doesn’t judge people and accepts everyone for who they are even her in-laws. She understands that people are people and she treats everyone with the same respect and kindness.
She knows how to have fun, but also knows when it’s time for work and family. She’s got time management and organizational skills down to a fine art. She’s great at balancing the family. She’s solid.
She knows who she is and what she’s made of but she never puts herself on a pedestal or thinks she is better than anyone else. We are all equals. She’s a down to earth, salt of the earth kinda gal. She can hang out with the best and the worst of them, always maintaining who she is and what she stands for. Equality and love for all.
If you found yourself a girl like this, you’ve struck gold. She’s definitely a keeper and someone you will be proud to bring home to your family. Notice I didn’t mention she is beautiful?
That’s an inside thing.